Feb 18 2019
It was a 3 day weekend. My favorite. That was sarcasm in case you couldn’t tell. It was long. Not that Kyle was abnormally hard, the days just seem really long lately.
I woke up this morning already dreading the day. I’ve been trying to lose some weight and the scale has been stuck. So this morning when it was stuck on the same number it has for the last week I was even more annoyed. Then I walked downstairs and ate a cookie…and then another…and then another freaking cookie. What the crap Katie?! No self control.
I immediately text james to complain about my zero weight loss and ridiculous cookie eating rampage. He told me I should go for a run-it would make me feel better. Right away, I thought of 27 excuses why I couldn’t go. The number one- Kyle was home today. How was I going to go for a run?!
After texting james back all my excuses I realized how dumb I was being. Its Monday the beginning of a new week. My goal from the beginning of the year was to run 3x a week. The 3 days whit is in prek. Has that happened? Nope. Something has come up every week. Like legit things most of the time. But sometimes I just say nope it’s cold I’m not going. Today was as good as any to start.
So I put my running clothes on. Got my headphones in. Looked at cody and said “I’m going for a run, you’re in charge!” He didn’t hesitate and said ok! I gave Kyle a bag of chips and crossed my fingers! Out the door I went!
I ran 2 miles, was slower than ever and my lungs burned from the cold-but I did it! And it felt so good! Like so good! I needed that run, not just physically but mentally. And guess what? Kyle was fine with Cody. Didn’t cry. All was well when I walked through the door 20 minutes later!
Then I had to go pick Justin up from his moms…normally I’d load Kyle and Whitney in the car for the half hour drive there and hour back. With Kyle anxious in the back if we had to wait a few minutes for them to get there. Then heaven forbid I have any conversation with Justin’s mom! So I decided I was going to have Cody watch Kyle again. And guess what? They were fine. Cody did great with him!
It was so liberating and I felt a teeny bit of freedom knowing I could leave Kyle with Cody for short bits of time and it’s ok. It’s ok. I was reminded today how important it is for my mental well being to take “me time”. And it’s ok. I was reminded how important it is to make it a priority. The rest of my day was so much smoother because I took that 20 minute run. I had more patience after I was able to go pick Justin up BY MYSELF.
Sometimes I think I don’t deserve-and maybe that’s the wrong word but-to take “me time” daily. That I shouldn’t need “me time” daily. Well I do deserve it and I do need it in order to be the best mom to Kyle. And it’s ok.
Monday, Wednesday, Friday runs are going to be a priority.