I decided to document my morning routine with Kyle. Watching it back I found myself getting emotional. Emotional thinking about how far I’ve come as Kyles mom. How much I’ve learned about myself. About how much further I have to go. About how much more I have to learn. It was a lot of different emotions. And with Kyle that is often the case.
As I watch this, mostly I feel proud of myself. I’m proud of the mom Kyle has molded me into. I’m proud of all the battles I have endured being his mom. I’m proud of the patience I have to dig deep to find day in and day out-cuz I’ve learned if i get upset it only makes my life harder. I’m proud of myself for waking up every morning and doing life-especially on days that I really want to give up (and there are many days that giving up sounds way better). I’m proud of the knowledge I have gained through trial and error-which has helped me better mother Kyle and my other kids!
I’ve said this before, when I got that diagnosis of fragile x and autism 11 years ago, I wanted to immediately “fix” kyle. But over the years I’ve learned that he wasn’t sent to me to be “fixed”, he was sent to “fix” me. To teach me to be a better person. A better mom. A better wife. A better friend. He is definitely the one doing the fixing!
We have many more years to go, filled with good and bad seasons. And I have many more years of lessons to learn and more patience to gain. Life is definitely not easy with Kyle even when I change my perspective. It’s HARD. Everyday. But trying to focus on the lessons and being grateful makes it a teeny tiny bit easier when he refuses to stand up in the mornings or when he is laying down and refuses to help me as I try to dress him! 🙄 so that’s what I’ll do-focus on the lessons and being grateful for those lessons that Kyle saves special for me! 😉
Our morning routine. This is every single morning. It usually takes about 10 min. And he doesn’t help at all in fact he usually tries his hardest to make it near impossible to get him dressed!
The next battle 😉 is getting him to get out of bed and downstairs. If it was a Saturday he’d be up and at em at 5 am no problem! But school days he is all the sudden so tired! Usually threatening to get James is enough to get him to stand. James is not part of the routine so he doesn’t want James even near the room! Luckily it works most mornings just saying I’m gonna go get him! 😂
Then we move on to going downstairs to start that part of the morning routine! Trying to get him to be quiet is quite the task! He can’t seem to help himself with that echo going down the stairs. But man he is soooooo loud!
After breakfast he has about 10 minutes he can watch tv (the same exact episode of blues clues). And I prime him (which means telling him what is going to happen so he knows what to expect) over and over again. Usually we go over this about 10x. Then the bus comes….😬 we all know how that goes! Still working on perfecting that!🤨